It was a little chilly this morning. Chilly enough that I pulled out my big cozy sweater to take stalk of our new home in the early morning; Looking at the dew that had settled on our plants hanging off the bus's side mirrors, on the bag of tomatoes from my Dad's garden. Sometime between my last blog post and now, we acquired a bus. Sometime between my last blog post and now, four whole seasons have come and gone. I have turned a year older. We have lived in two different apartments.
I have attended 7 births.
We have moved...into a bus!
It seems like just a few months ago, we were moving back to Vermont. Digesting the previous months of our lives. Letting the dust settle and recovering from jet lag. It amazing how time stands still when you travel. I felt so PRESENT then. Grateful for the day and the smells and the food and the people and the majesty and the higher spirit. Its easy to be caught up in the mundane. Don't let it happen. Sing to the sun in the morning for its life giving power. Tell your mother, your lover, your brother, another, how gosh darn lucky your are to know them! Do something that absolutely terrifies you like move out of your apartment, quit your job and move into a bus with your honey and your cat. Don't let any fear stop you from living the honest real deal truth of your dreams.
BE bold. BE silly and make mistakes. BE without a safety net. Don't be afraid to BE authentic.
I say this as much for myself as for all of you. I decided years ago, that a life lived in fear was a life I never wanted to live. Since then I have worked on knockin' those fears back. Its not always easy and its not always grandiose. The victories are often small but no less fulfilling. Sometimes its as simple as eating something I thought I would never like and sometimes its as complex as being really and truly HONEST with myself. I like slipping up and making 'mistakes'. That's where we truly learn. I love facing my fears. I love Nate more every day for helping me face them and being honest with his own.
I love our life. And I LOVE that this exact life would only be possible with him in it.
(For the record, I definitely saw some Unicorns frolicking under the Rainbow)
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Did you realize that you have control over your happiness! Regardless of what you have or don't have.
Isn't that amazing!!!
Nate and I understand that. It isn't always easy to see it in the moment but we understand that we need to be accountable for ourselves and our own lives. Who we spend time with, how we treat others, how accountable we are for every decision, action and reaction. It's really quite simple - we have control over our happiness! I mean it, you REALLY DO!!
Thank you for reading that. I hope it sinks in.
So now without further ado....Lets get down to why you are really here: to know what the heck is going on with this bus of ours! The month that we moved back to Vermont, last June, we bought a 1998 Bluebird Bus off of Craigslist. You know that feeling when you are traveling and you never want it to end. You just want that feeling of the unknown and the unattached to keep going. Well, we decided for us, the path to that feeling was to...well.... just keep going. On our trip, we had talked about buying a VW bus. I know, how cliche. But it made sense. It was compact, which after living out of a backpack for so long, it seemed almost overwhelming to live in anything larger. To actually have to "deal" with all of our stuff stored away in various basements and realize how little of it we actually needed, well we just were not bold enough to address that yet. It was also nostalgic. I mean, come one, who hasn't dreamed of a road trip in a VW bus?! However, for us New Englander's, there are certain realities like rust which tend to take their toll on those vintage beauties. So, we found the next best thing. - A BUS! She is a well loved ol' gal. Has certainly seen her fair share of Vermont winters. Rust and critters have made themselves quite cozy and it seems like when we fix one little thing, we are really just pulling a tiny string that unravels the whole giant rusty old ball. Thus is our lives - Loving, repairing things, breathing,power tools, a little swearing, maybe a couple tears and an ever optimistic eye on the road ahead. We admittedly waited far too long to begin repairs and so when our original date of departure (September 1) rolled around, we were far from ready. We finally pulled out of Vermont last week and after more repairs and improvements and lots LOTS of help from family and friends (extra special BIG thanks to Jed and the Corrine St gang, Jean, Kirk, JD and everyone else who laid their hands on this beast) we finally hit the road! Stay tuned for lots of pics and hopefully a good story or two. "Special Purpose" is far from complete, it will be an ever evolving project, much like all of us. Go hug someone and have a great day.
we love you.
xoxo
**this post was originally started on September 5th and finally posted today, just an idea of how silly busy our days have been!
Thank you for reading that. I hope it sinks in.
So now without further ado....Lets get down to why you are really here: to know what the heck is going on with this bus of ours! The month that we moved back to Vermont, last June, we bought a 1998 Bluebird Bus off of Craigslist. You know that feeling when you are traveling and you never want it to end. You just want that feeling of the unknown and the unattached to keep going. Well, we decided for us, the path to that feeling was to...well.... just keep going. On our trip, we had talked about buying a VW bus. I know, how cliche. But it made sense. It was compact, which after living out of a backpack for so long, it seemed almost overwhelming to live in anything larger. To actually have to "deal" with all of our stuff stored away in various basements and realize how little of it we actually needed, well we just were not bold enough to address that yet. It was also nostalgic. I mean, come one, who hasn't dreamed of a road trip in a VW bus?! However, for us New Englander's, there are certain realities like rust which tend to take their toll on those vintage beauties. So, we found the next best thing. - A BUS! She is a well loved ol' gal. Has certainly seen her fair share of Vermont winters. Rust and critters have made themselves quite cozy and it seems like when we fix one little thing, we are really just pulling a tiny string that unravels the whole giant rusty old ball. Thus is our lives - Loving, repairing things, breathing,power tools, a little swearing, maybe a couple tears and an ever optimistic eye on the road ahead. We admittedly waited far too long to begin repairs and so when our original date of departure (September 1) rolled around, we were far from ready. We finally pulled out of Vermont last week and after more repairs and improvements and lots LOTS of help from family and friends (extra special BIG thanks to Jed and the Corrine St gang, Jean, Kirk, JD and everyone else who laid their hands on this beast) we finally hit the road! Stay tuned for lots of pics and hopefully a good story or two. "Special Purpose" is far from complete, it will be an ever evolving project, much like all of us. Go hug someone and have a great day.
we love you.
xoxo
**this post was originally started on September 5th and finally posted today, just an idea of how silly busy our days have been!